23.1.16

patterns on the floor

i wake up
to the sun casting light patterns on the wooden floor,
to the smell of bacon sizzling in the pan,
to the musical harmony of the birds,
to the fresh start of a brand new day.

i crawl out of bed
with a heart shattered because of you,
with eyes slowly drooping back into sleep,
with a soul broken into two,
with pain gnawing at my feet.

because beauty always surrounds us,
but we focus too much on our pain
that the intrinsic patterns on the floor are forgotten.

19.1.16

oh, laughing and dancing

we used to ride and sing and prance and play,
with no one to tell us no.
we flew away.

we flew over the moon, above the clouds, laughing.
we would run across the lush green fields, dancing.

we hid in the attic closet, you whispering horror stories to me.
then we would rush down the stairs for lemonade and tea;
laughing--yes, laughing and dancing.

and hand in hand we would walk down the quite street,
down that dark little alley with all the lamps lit.
just the two of us--you and me-- laughing, oh, laughing and dancing.

i walked down the street today, hands feeling cold and empty,
the street was quiet--an eerie silence--not as beautiful as it used to be.

i visited the green field, but the flowers were fading,
withering, lifeless, sad, dying.

i went to the attic closet but found a mountain of dust,
spider webs decorating the place, showing the time that has passed.

and i slowly walked down the creaky old stairs,
and slowly combed my old, grey hairs.

because we were perfect, when you still breathed,
and after you left, my whole being grieved.

and we used to laugh and dance as two,
but my heart is broken, and all i can do-
is remember and never give up
the memories. 

because that is what we are. a distant, beautiful memory.
laughing, oh, laughing and dancing.

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hey you cookie. thanks for reading this kinda sad and gloomy piece. it almost broke my heart to write it hehh. 
just wanted to thank you jellybeans who have been leaving the most beautiful of comments. you guys make me smile again and again♥ go have a great day, hon. you deserve it.

17.1.16

letting Him


t e r r i f i e d

He says, "don't be afraid.
your sins has been paid
with this crimson cleansing fountain."

but i can't see over my mountain 
of fear. 

He says, "I love you;
I love you through and through,
I love your failure and your doubt."

but i can't reach, can't wash out
my pain.


l o v e d

but i forget that i don't need to reach out,
i don't need to climb over,
i don't need to tiptoe,
i don't need to strain
alone.

i have to be willing to let Him-
let Him pull me out,
let Him carry me,
let Him be my guide,
let Him save me.

because my fears are chased away with His perfect love. 

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i got some inspiration of this poem from adelaide's beautiful blog down by the willows. check it out-it's worth every bit of your time. 

also can you believe it! it's almost end of january. how's your 2016 been looking?
photos all from tumblr. :)

1.1.16

his call

The world called,
and I listened.
They screamed for me,
and I listened.

I read and saw and heard
everything they could offer.
They said "come, have fun"
and I listened.

They offered joy and worldly pleasure
They offered "happiness" and "peace."
They promised money and riches
and I listened.

But then He came,
and knocked on my heart's door.
He urged me to follow
But I ignored His call.

He came again,
and begged for my soul.
"Come," He implored
But I ignored His call.

And then the world threw me
drugs and alcohol and sex
And I was broken
but I listened.

I took what they offered
Searching for happiness
The drugs nearly killed me,
But I still listened.

But the knocking continued,
"Please, I can help"
He said.
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and
I
opened
the
door.

And He came in
Full of true happiness, true joy
true peace, true love
and I embraced Him.

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so 2016 is upon us, friends. ♥♥ just some thoughts to start the new year right. and oh, shouldn't our goal for this year include embracing and loving Him? here's to an awesome and amazing 2016. happy new year!